Proof that anyone can do anything literally right now. (2 Viewers)

[Socialism]

Do you watch the Lex Fridman podcast?

lmao

 

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Challenge:
Intentions have been the death of myself, and whenever I think about giving up, I feel like crying.

I feel this way not because of the act of giving up, but because entertaining the idea of putting an end to my intentions gives makes me feel normal again, like the whole show is over and I can just live my life normally.

Greatness has become a dogma for me over the years, and after understanding that what I truly yearn for is goodness, all I care about now are the things that matter more to me than me.

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I declare on this day, that I will attempt to let go of everything and try to be a normal person for the next year, zero intentions and just go with the flow in submission to an existence which I earn a sense of immersion and belonging to in.

Now with uni just around the corner, I will also have the best set of circumstances to have the lifestyle that will demand me to become normal again, for that is the intensity of the flow that I will allow myself to go with.

Plans for the future? None. But, instead of comparing myself to where I want to be on an abstract time scale that matters very little for what’s actually happening to me in life right now, all I can say that for the next year, I AM a student, and what I will be next is that I will be nothing more than who I am. The best label I can give the essence of that truest true self, is an observer, but no words can do it justice, you just got to be it yourself at least once in your life, which thankfully although it has become unfamiliar to me it is something I have a history with.

Well that was fuking lie.
I will only strive for greatness and my flow that I go with will be my own.

 

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Here’s what I’m going to do:
Go back to college and complete the advanced diploma I failed, and at the same time build portfolio works from now in order to start looking for work in the video games industry.

If I don’t find work by the end of this year, then next year I’ll enrol into the new program from the college since I last left that allows me to study for another year and a half to get a bachelor’s degree.

I will continue to do the same thing until I get a job, and if I get a job offer during my studies then I’ll drop out or switch to part time since having a degree to my name with little commitment (since I’ve already done a fair amount of years for it to be worth it) would be a cool addition.

Once I get a job, I will simultaneously in the same way that I am practicing 3D animation to contribute to my portfolio works as the ‘selling point’ of these smaller side projects/games that I intend to publish to steam, as well as repurpose these practiced skills to build an audience online in anticipation of the dream game I’m doing all of this for that will likely take many years to complete, I will be passively signing up to other degrees for entirely different courses for interests I have despite being committed to the career I am pursuing, because learning for the sake of learning instead of only having my plans for the future to decide what it is I study is what I like the most.

I would study things like biochemistry, ICT, economics, engineering, physics, astrophysics, neuroscience, etc, and then repurpose these understandings and self-studied but license/degree acquired/achieved practices over the course of 6-10 years part time to my full time work on my dream game, to then at long last make the things I sincerely dreamed of and still dream about on this forum.

SAO, immortality, and having a lifelong adventure of chasing the higher world I belong to while saving this one simultaneously.
These are the things I will do while I strive to become as capable and achieved as my Ideal self.